Religion’s a very interesting subject in my life. It’s always a very touchy subject around my house because of my differing views from my parents. They raised me in a Lutheran Church and expected me to grow up to be a “good Christian” like they are. As I grew up, I went to church, never really enjoying it but not questioning it. Finally, it was time for me to be confirmed. In order to do this, you have to go through Catechism class. I took the class, got through it, and was finally confirmed. I haven’t been to church since that day. The funny thing about taking Catechism is what happens to you as you take it. For most people, it gives them a better understanding of the Bible and brings them closer to their faith. For me, however, it made me question the things I was being taught. While questioning the beliefs, I started to realize that I didn’t agree with what they believed in. I started to ask myself questions such as, “Is there a God?” I decided that there’s no way that I can be sure that there is one. That led to another question: “If there is a God, why should I worship him?” There are the obvious answers that involve going to heaven, thanking him for creating me, and being grateful for Jesus dying on the cross for me. It was at this point that I realized that it didn’t make any logical sense to me how Jesus could be considered the son of God. We’ve all seen the crazed people in this world that will blindly follow someone because they say something charismatic or act differently. How does someone know that Jesus wasn’t just another fraud trying to make a name for himself? The only answer I ever get when I ask that question is, “That’s why they call it a faith.” As a math major, that answer wasn’t good enough for me. I need proof, and there’s no way you can prove that there is a God. So, I decided that I didn’t want to spend my time worshipping a God that I wasn’t sure I believed in. Also, if I were to believe in a God, is that a good enough reason to think that I’m going to heaven? Lutherans believe that faith is enough to get you into heaven, and I think that’s ridiculous. So, I’ve decided that I don’t want to be a “good Christian”, but rather a good person. If there is a heaven, I think that should be enough.





