Several days ago thomasam arguably the most respected member of the Mets board shared that at age 30 he shed tears when longtime voice of the Mets Bob Murphy passed away. My understanding of that was it was as much the loss of a familiar and constant link to the Mets and his boyhood as it was Bob Murphy himself. This past long slow winter without baseball I came to the understanding that as much as anything I wanted Gary, Keith, Ron and Kevin back in my life.
As the players raced to the mound to encompass Johan last night my eyes welled up and I shed tears as well. It was for me from that first game in April of 1962 against this very same franchise, the Cardinals until last night to see a Mets pitcher throw the first no hitter. I was happy for Johan Santana, and to see the joy on the field and in the stands. The monkey on the back of Mets fans everywhere was finally gone. It wasn’t until hours later that I realized what the truths were for me. The tears may have been a creation of the relief of tension as well as joy. My feelings of Johan and the no-hitter hadn’t changed, what did was there never was the burden of a monkey on my back.
My team went to and won their first World Series in their 8<sup>th</sup> year. There were 4 World Series and 2 World Championships in our first 39 years. We have had great players; great managers and we have great fans. We never had a batting champ until Jose Reyes did it last year. That had never been a burden either.
Last night as the booth wrapped up Keith Hernandez said to Gary Cohen (who as a lifelong Mets fan has the job this fan would want more than being wealthy, famous or powerful) “hey Gar you are getting emotional”. There were a lot of tears shed last night for varies reasons by the Mets faithful last night.
Terry Collins, in my mind shed the worse kind. At the post game interview he fought them back as he talked about the struggle he had about letting Johan go back out for the eighth inning. Reportedly Johan told him “I’m not coming out” and Terry responded “you are my hero”. Sometime last night, hours after the game either in his office or at home Terry shed the tears of anguish. The non existent burden of the no hitter is now a very real burden that Terry Collins will have to deal with as he waits until he knows that his decision to let Johan exceed the post surgical imposed pitch count will not have an adverse affect. Damned if you do and damned if you don’t.