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The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

Posted on: March 4, 2008 9:21 am
Edited on: March 4, 2008 9:22 am
I know all you men out there like breasts, right?  Some like them big and some like them small, but in the end, you like them all or shall I say love them all?  This is the important part of this assignment for all you men out there.  Believe it or not you can actually help your woman maintain her health by noticing and talking about any abnormal lumps you may feel in the breast when you are …..uh…..examining them.  Yeah that’s it, examination. My friend’s husband noticed a lump in her breast and it was cancer. She received immediate treatment and she is doing quite well now thanks to him. Women are encouraged to give themselves exams but another opinion never hurts and that is where you guys come in.   Now to be fair in my public service announcement it would be unfair if I left you fellows out of the discussion. Men can also have breast cancer. My Grandfather has had both breasts removed about 8 years ago due to cancerous tumors growing there.  You fellows should check yourselves and don’t be too embarrassed to ask your physician about anything you find.   Breast cancer is devastating for women.  Mastectomies steal a part of our femininity from us. We don’t feel sexy. We feel deformed. It is incredibly emotional, the damage it does to your self image and self worth.   How do I know this? I didn’t have a husband or boyfriend find my lumps.  I happened to have gotten an MRI on my shoulder as a result of a bike crash which left my rotator cuff in shambles.  This was a blessing in disguise for me. As a result I have had a double mastectomy. Chemotherapy took my hair. The avatar pictures that I have posted were me before breast cancer.  I am embarrassed to have posted these pictures now because I have been dishonest with myself and you readers out there.  I have been living in the past, enjoying the ability to be able to flirt again.  To be noticed again. As Gezemice correctly pointed out, I am underweight for a woman 5’9” in height at 123 pounds.  But not really given what is missing and the anemia I am struggling with. She encouraged me to see a doctor, concerned I may have an eating disorder, and I wish that was it. I am happy to say I am doing fine. Latest tests were negative and my prognosis is good. I am supposed to see a plastic surgeon in a few months about reconstruction.  I actually still play great golf.  And I work out constantly to rebuild my strength.  And mountain biking starts up soon.   Now this blog is not intended to draw pity from any of you.  And I certainly do not want to depress anyone.  Rather to come clean with myself and perhaps do some good for all of you. Please heed this warning. Check yourselves. See your doctor’s. Get the uncomfortable things looked at (mammograms, paps smears, prostates, colonoscopies, etc…) and you may live long enough to see the Cubs win a World Series.    This blog has been cathartic for me. Thanks for listening and get out there and give some examinations (ask for permission and warm up your hands, first….LOL).   I think I am done for a while.  Have a great spring. Amanda Victoria
Category: General
Tags: Health

Since: Jun 24, 2007
Posted on: March 4, 2008 12:39 pm

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

A.V. I read your Blog, I am very happy your friend caught it early. My wife being over 40 checks her self an a regular basis. She felt something last year and had it checked out, it was nothing, thank god.

My thoughts and prayers are with you on your upcoming procedure.


Since: Jan 31, 2008
Posted on: March 4, 2008 12:32 pm

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

Just read your post and I think it is a great thing that you made this statement, because too often, cancer goes unnoticed and early detection is the key.  I don't think you should feel ashamed of the pictures you have posted as your avatar.  It is you, you are a beautiful woman inside and out, so don't regret anything that you have done.  I am glad to have met you in the short time I have been on CBS and you made me feel very welcome and shared your sports thoughts with me.  I wish you the best in the future and great health to you. 

Since: Dec 1, 2007
Posted on: March 4, 2008 12:26 pm

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.


You are a strong, brave soul, and posting your personal story only proves that more.  I'm sorry for your pain, but happy to know your prognosis is good.  I have no doubt your inner strength will pull you through this, and you will continue your successful life for a long time to come. 

My Mom had a lump several years ago which was benign.  This was more scary considering cancer is prevalent in our family.  She had a lumpectomy, a course of chemo, and she is doing fine.  There has been no recurrence.  I realize this is nothing close to what you had to endure, but she is much older than you and I'm hoping this gives you some solace. 

Please don't feel as if any pictures or comments you have posted are wrong because they were you.  I hope you will continue to share your wonderful insights and humor on here.  If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me. 


Since: Aug 21, 2006
Posted on: March 4, 2008 12:04 pm

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

AV - First let me say I am proud of you to even put something like this out there, great job.  Second, anyone who is on these boards to worry about looks is really in the wrong place.  It is the real you that comes through on your posts and blog comments.  Given the chance that any of us on the board will ever meet each other, we are left with only our words to get to know each other. 

That said the real you is who you are and that doesn't change with a mastectomy, chemotherapy, hair loss, hair growth, etc. and that is the person we all know and want to hear from and chat with.

I encourage you to do what you need, and understand the desire for the plastic surgery.  My grandmother had a double mastectomy years ago and I went through a lump removal with my wife.  We are all here to support you and encourage you.  Keep getting stronger and doing what you need.  You are a ball of fun and great to read.  Anyone would be proud to have you as a friend.  I will pray for your continued recovery and hope all the blessings in the world come to you.

Go Amanda!!!

Since: Sep 9, 2006
Posted on: March 4, 2008 11:33 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

AV, I understand the catharsism that can come from opening up and glad that this blog has helped you.  Don't you dare go away now, there's alot of us who enjoy your humor and your writings.  I also think that these boards for you, (like me) are a little theraputic, at least mentally.  Hopefully you'll stay with us and keep laughing and enjoying the boards and the people you've been chatting with. 


Since: Feb 28, 2007
Posted on: March 4, 2008 11:21 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.


I am sorry if something I said made your pain worse again.  I am glad to hear that you are doing well and recovering. 

Thank you for reminding us what's important in our lives and count our blessings when we still have them.

Just remember, what matters is on the inside, not on the outside.  You can always find yourself within and focus on who you are instead of how you look.  I hope you can find the strength to pull through. 

The T-shirt in my avatar is one I got for Illini Madness back in October to support breast cancer research.  I hope that can help at least some.

I wish you a full recovery and that you find yourself within and find happiness.

Since: Feb 6, 2008
Posted on: March 4, 2008 10:12 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

AV this is an incredibly brave thing you did by coming out about your breast cancer.  It is never an easy thing to discuss and even more so when it changes the way people see you.  Like others that have posted here i hope that you return soon and post again, b/c I always look forward to reading your posts and blogs.  I am glad to hear that you are doing well and that everything is okay health wise, my prayers are with you as you continue to recover both physically and mentally.  I hope by discussing it today and from people's comments that you can begin to heal mentally.  Please come back and post soon.

Since: Jan 14, 2007
Posted on: March 4, 2008 9:48 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.

AV, Thanks for the reminder that it is important things in life that matter. The lives of loved ones is more important than football games, baseball games,etc. I hope that your coming "out" does not keep you from posting here. Your discussions have always provoked much thinking and contemplation. And, I still want to know which brand bow you shoot!!!

Since: Feb 12, 2008
Posted on: March 4, 2008 9:46 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.


I believe I can speak for everyone on these boards in offering you our moral support in your fight against this terrible disease.  From personal family experience, I can atest to the courage and faith it takes to fight this.  Keep the faith and don't ever stop fighting.

Since: Oct 19, 2007
Posted on: March 4, 2008 9:42 am

The real AV. Catharsis is healthy.


My best wishes.  I've yet to read any community member be as open as you about your breast cancer.  Wow.  It's most appreciated.  I hope your catharsis helps.  More importantly, I'm glad your prognosis is good and you are looking into reconstruction. 

In the long run, ones health is the most important thing a person can have. 

I feel a little ashamed in several recent posts I encouraged you to post a sexy av of yourself.  Please realize your av was only the icing and your posts the cake, and its the cake that keeps me coming back for more.

Have a good day!

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