The time is drawing near. A time so long and far into the future I could not imagine it actually getting here. But on Friday I head to the plastic surgeon to discuss my reconstructive surgery. Before my cancer, I was a D-cup. I have lived most of my life with big breasts and they had become a part of my identity whether I wanted them to or not. Living without after my cup had runneth over has been an eye opening experience in many ways-both positive and negative. For a time I felt very inadequate and extremely self concious. Natural to feel this way after so drastic a change to my health, physical and mental. But the docs have giving me the go ahead to begin the process of reconstruction. I am so excited to writing a late if not final chapter in the book of my cancer and look forward to getting on with normalcy.
But I have a problem, I am not sure what size I want to be for the rest of my life. I am 37 years old, 5'9" and 122 lbs today. I am tall, athletic and muscular in build. I am thinking of something smaller. Perhaps a full B or smaller C cup.
But everytime I decide, I change my mind again. So I need some help guys and gals. Opinions please. Pros and cons. Go big or small? Or perhaps follow Baby Bear's advice and find something that is just right.
Thanks,
AV
Dear Trolls,
F.O.A.D. - thank you.
