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A Christian's Testimony

Posted on: March 4, 2008 5:01 pm
Edited on: November 28, 2009 8:34 pm
 

Aboy4Christ!

My name is Tony. I am 43 years old and married to the most wonderful woman for 17 years now. When I met her 18 years ago, I had just got out of the military. My wife and most of her family were of the Christian faith, I was raised Catholic and called myself a Christian. I thought I was! The first seven years or so of our marriage was very rocky (I do not know how my wife stayed with me). I was very foul mouthed, and listened to nothing but the hardest gangster rap that I could find. I disrespected my wife in MANY ways. Many ways! I am embarrassed and hurt at what I put her through. She stood beside me, as did her family. I drank a lot! Hung around with bad influential people! That eventually led me to drugs. Cocaine, and crank! started out small, and then increased dramatically, hiding money from my wife to support my habit. Freebasing (smoking crank)! Eventually I got to a point that I could not get the money any more, so I switched with guns blazing to alcohol (which I never had left, but was secondary to drugs). It got to where I drank every night, at least a 12pack, and I absolutely could not sleep with out it. I had insomnia, and very bad anxiety. My under arms would sweat profusely wetting all my shirts, and making me very self conscious. I could not go out to dinner, or shopping, or anything, because I would have very bad anxiety attacks and break out into a flushed sweat (even with my family). Meanwhile, my mother-in-law (Margie) unknown to me at the time, was diligently praying for me. Me and Margie were close, we had :(she passed away 6 years ago) a special bond (even though I was as far away from God as I could be). Margie, since the day that I met her was fighting Lupus. A nasty disease that attacks all the major organs. She lost her kidney, and had a transplant after years of dialysis, then that one began to fail. She was always sick, lost her hair, almost died numerous times. She spent a lot of time in the hospital. Never complained!! I was drawn to her because she was unlike anyone I had ever met. Full of Grace, humility, but above all Love. She radiated everywhere she went regardless of how she felt. One time in the hospital she got so bad .. so bad, that me and my wife went to church to ask the Lord for help, and we kept going as the Lord drew me (us) near. Remember, that I thought I was saved! I made my communion as a catholic and was baptized. I think I may have even raised my hand before to accept Jesus (It was not with a true heart-merely words). Then, I heard a sermon! The Pastor preached that the Lord was going to say to some of us there, on the day of judgement, to get away, he never knew me. Wow! I went home and called my mother-in-law (she finally was home) to ask what he meant? She could not answer, because she didn't know the context of how he had spoke it. I started to clean up my act .... slowwwly. So now I am a self proclaimed Christian doing good works. I still had the anxiety, and the Alcohol, and the insomnia. I wanted so bad to stop drinking, but I would go days without sleep if I did not get drunk. I prayed! I put on Christian music as I slept! I tried and tried. I was a mess! I almost gave up the whole Christian thing. I was doing everything I could do to get what Margie had. Peace! We started a bible study with mostly family (small). This is where the lord ministered to me. He took me to the passage that was bothering me.

Matthew 7:21-23   Jesus said- 21. "Not everyone who says to me, Lord, Lord, will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22. Many will say to me on that day, Lord, Lord did we not prophesy on your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles? 23. Then I will tell them plainly, I never knew you. Away from me, you evil doers!"

Shortly after I read this and the Lord opened my eyes and heart, alone in my home, I got on my knees and asked the Lord with a sincere heart to forgive me for my sins and to be the leader of my life. I chose to believe and trust Jesus. Wow! The Lord began to change me as the days went, and took away my anxiety and provided me with restful sleep without the aid of alcohol for the first time in years. HE CLEANED ME UP! He saved my marriage, and my health. Jesus gave me Peace! Peace found no where else!! Life is not always easy, but he never lets me down. What an awesome Savior! As soon as I stopped doing things myself and gave it to him, and made him 1ST in my life, he carried my burdens for me! Jesus Loves!

That's my short version and story! I would Love to have other Christians come into this Blog and give us your testimony, your story .

This BLOG is for testimony and Praise to God. Any negative comments or negative posts will be deleted.

Bless you all!!

 

 


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Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: March 20, 2008 1:03 pm
 

Allow me to introduce myself

Aboy

I posted a comment on your thread about the invitation to christ. I have got to tell you, you are a real inspiration to me. I am only 20 and i have been going to church all my life. I have never struggled with the things you have so i dont know how it feels. God works in great ways and its awesome how he worked in your life. But i do want to say that when I am 41 and still growing in Christ I hope to be as strong as you. I do ask however, if you could possibly pray for me because right now I am struggling with speding time in the word and spending time with Christ. It seems like i never have anytime. I work full time and im going to school full time so it seems i never have time. I know you dont know me and I dont know you but if you and some of the other christians on here could pray for me it would be well appreciated.  




Since: Aug 29, 2006
Posted on: March 17, 2008 1:10 am
 

Allow me to introduce myself

Great post, Aboy4christ... It takes a lot to come out and say it, and it takes a heck of a lot more to say it in this day and age where people are ridiculed for their beliefs.

I am a 15-year-old, and I do share the belief in Jesus Christ, our Savior.  I am not a go-to-church-every-chance-I-get Christian, but I do sometimes. And since today was Palm Sunday, and having read most of the passages on it already on Saturday (what I believe is the true Sabbath) I feel a physical guilt, for almost anything I've done wrong. And what Jesus died for... well, I dont know how He did it. He died, not for the greatest of people on earth... He died for the lowliest. He died for sinners. He died for us.

So since I am 15, only, I do not have a story as awe-inspiring as yours, Aboy4christ, but I do believe that I am blessed nonetheless. I had a sister who battled cocaine, meth, and perscription drug addictions for many years, and was an alcoholic and a smoker since the age of 14, and she went through rehab, and that didnt work. Well, I'll just shorten it up. Nothing worked, until she accepted Jesus. Although she is still kind of struggling with her faith, she is clean, of drugs, smoking, and alcohol. She has been for over 5 years.

And now, I only came on to write a short comment, but I could write for days about the things God has done for us all... But, I will cut it short...

I'll end this with a great Psalm...

Psalm 27 - King James Version...

1: The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?
2: When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.
3: Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.
4: One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in his temple.
5: For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.
6: And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.
7: Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8: When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.
9: Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.
10: When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11: Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12: Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13: I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14: Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.




Since: Nov 4, 2007
Posted on: March 11, 2008 12:05 am
 

Allow me to introduce myself

My life also descended into a bewildering maze of substance abuse and neglect of my responsibilities eventually leading to my divorce from the Woman I had been married to for 15 years! I was drinking daily after the divorce to the point where one day I came to the realization that I hadn't drawn a sober breath in weeks. I got down on my knees and I said "Jesus, If you really do exist and if you really love me then HELP ME!" Somehow I managed to stay Sober that first day. That evening I ran across some literature about recovery from Alcoholism and actually called the number to get help. I prayed at least twice daily for help staying sober after that. I got out my old Bible and began to read it daily as well. I saw a sign on the local Baptist Church that they were having a revival meeting. I attended and something made me rise to my feet and go to the front of the audience when the Pastor asked who had not yet been saved but wanted to be. I accepted Christ into my life as my personal savior that evening. That was six months ago and with lots of effort, study, and prayer and with the support of lots of friends I have been Drug and Alcohol free ever since. My relationships with my Family have begun ti strengthen again. My outlook on life has improved dramatically. I no longer rely strictly on my own judgement and counsel. I have friends, loved ones, and my self respect back. Let them scoff, Those are Miracles to me.



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Since: Jul 18, 2007
Posted on: March 6, 2008 9:12 pm
 

Allow me to introduce myself

Willstein, it takes guts to admit you were wrong and maning up about it.



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Since: Jan 17, 2008
Posted on: March 6, 2008 3:22 pm
 

Allow me to introduce myself

By the way, Tony i found the perfect song for this blog, and what happened in your life. It's "So Long Self" by MercyMe. If you don't already have it at least listen to it. I have it on my i-pod and i love it!



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