|Owens opened up to a reporter, discussing how one could have suicidal thoughts. (US Presswire|
Over the years, we've discussed Terrell Owens at length for his diva-like ways, his inability to hold down a pro football job (ANY pro football job), his appearance with Dr. Phil, if he can get back into the NFL and his reality TV show. Last October, we wrote about how Owens was rushed to the hospital and how the person who dialed 911 was worried that Owens was trying to kill himself.
Later, one of Owens' PR reps denied that there was any intent to commit suicide, but still, it was a moment to reflect on what exactly was happening in Owens' life.
From the story:
"Everything that I've gone through since the end of 2010, from me finding out about my financial adviser stealing, mismanaging my money -- that affected everything, from child support, mortgages, to me having to sell my properties, me being in and out of court trying to modify my child support. It's just everything. It's a lot to deal with at one time. My grandmother passing. Going through a relationship with my ex-girlfriend, Kari. All those things. I swear, I felt like I was just standing there and I had a firing squad going at me."
He's tense. As he speaks, he's looking at the synthetic green turf of the soccer field. He's not the only person to contemplate suicide, he says. "Again, if I'm saying what a lot of people have thought or think, why am I wrong for saying it? When I say, who hasn't probably thought of that? Am I wrong for saying somebody has thought about, Is it worth living? Just because I'm a figure and I say sometimes what people are thinking, that's not wrong. I'm not less of a person or a mental case because I say that."
This has felt like the longest year of his life. From the outside, it looks like the most consistent heel in modern sports is finally meeting his fate. But to the man, it feels like the Fates are testing everything he knows about life. He says he's been struggling lately.
"A lot of emotional stress that people go through, some people figure out a way to handle it," he says. "They have a strong enough support system to keep going and keep moving forward. And some people, they feel like they don't have that outlet. Some people are too prideful to go out and reach out to people to help them in that situation because it's just such a dark time."
It should be noted that this interview was conducted before Owens and the IFL's Allen Wranglers parted ways, so there's no way to know at this point how Owens is dealing with his unemployment.
But when he was in the minor leagues, Owens said he wasn't embarrassed by his situation and that he's actually had to work harder. There's little doubt a lack of income is a concern. And perhaps so is his emotional well-being.
"People forget that I'm a human being, just because I play a sport that everybody loves," he said. "We're human. We're not invincible. We share the same feelings and emotions that people on the outside feel. I don't think people really understand that."
You should read the rest of the story. It's an interesting look at a man at the end of his career -- and hopefully one not at the end of his hope.
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