Shaquille O'Neal opens up about Kobe Bryant's death, relationship: 'I wish that I could say something to him'

Kobe Bryant and Shaquille O'Neal infamously clashed when they were teammates on the Los Angeles Lakers. Things soon got so bad that O'Neal was traded in an effort to convince Bryant to return to the team in free agency. But the two eventually reconciled with some distance. They spoke a number of times in a public forum, including O'Neal's podcast in 2015 and a TNT segment in 2018. O'Neal attended Bryant's final game in 2016, and Bryant attended the unveiling of O'Neal's statue in front of the Staples Center a year later. On several occasions, O'Neal referred to Bryant as the greatest Laker of all time. 

Bryant died on Sunday in a helicopter accident in Calabasas, Calif. and his loss has profoundly impacted the entire basketball world. Perhaps nobody within it was linked as closely to Bryant as O'Neal was, and he spoke at length about the sense of loss he has experienced since Bryant's death on a special TNT pregame show Tuesday. 

O'Neal, who lost his sister recently as well, explained that he initially didn't believe the news when he saw it. His tribute, in full, was emotionally devastating. 

"Well, as you know, the last couple months has been really tough. I lost my little sister. I haven't been sleeping. I haven't been doing the normal things I usually do. I work, we laugh, we kid and we joke. When I get back home and look at reality and see she's gone, it just hurts. So the other day, I'm downstairs working out with my son Shaqir and my nephew Columbus, and my other nephew comes in crying, and he shows me his phone, and I snapped at him. I said, 'Man, get that out of my face.' We live in a world where anything can be photoshopped, anything can be hoaxed. I didn't want to believe it. And then I got the call from [Ernie Johnson], Charles [Barkley], Kenny [Smith] -- everybody called me. And then we found out it was confirmed. I haven't felt a pain that sharp in a while. [I'm] 47 years old. I lost two grandmothers. I lost a sarge, lost my sister, and now I lost a little brother. 

Our names will be attached together for what we did. People always ask about our relationship, and I tell them it's just like me and Charles. You got two strong-minded people that are going to get it done their way, that are going to say certain things. The respect will never be lost. When it comes to being inside the lines and winning, that's what me him did. 

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Shareef called me devastated and said 'Kobe just texted me to see how I was doing.' He used to do that from time to time. You know, it just makes me think that in life, sometimes instead of holding back certain things, we should just do.

We up here, we work a lot, and I think a lot of times we take stuff for granted. Like, I don't talk to you guys as much as I need to. The fact that we're not gonna be able to joke during his Hall of Fame ceremony. We're not gonna be able to say, 'Ha, I got five and you got four.' The fact that we we're not gonna be able to say, 'If we could have stayed together we would've got 10.' Those are the things you can't get back. With the loss of my father, my sister ... that's the only thing I wish -- that I could say something to him. The last time I talked to him was when he was here [Staples Center] and I asked him to get 50 and he got 60. That's the last time I spoke to him. I just wish I could have. It definitely changes me. Because I work a lot. You guys know what I do. I work probably more than the average guy. I just really now have to take time and call and say I love you. ... I'm gonna try to do a better job of just reaching out and just talking to other people rather than always procrastinating because you never know."

O'Neal was understandably an emotional wreck in talking about Bryant, and at one point struggled for words so much that Ernie Johnson nearly steered the conversation to the other panelists. But he regained his composure and tried to take a lesson from the experience. He described the realization of needing to speak to the people he cares about more, a sentiment that has been shared by just about everyone grieving Bryant in recent days. 

After the segment, O'Neal led the crowd outside of the Staples Center in a boisterous "Kobe" chant: 

While few knew Bryant as well as O'Neal did, his loss can hopefully at least spur others into appreciating their lives and the people around them a little bit more. 

Sam Quinn joined CBS sports as a basketball writer in 2019. Prior to that, he wrote for 247Sports and Bleacher Report. He is a New York native and NYU graduate who also has roots in Florida and California. Full Bio

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